Sunday, July 30, 2006;
♥ 7:03 PM
it pains. to realize that i wont be playing drums every week again. yea. canceling my lessons. i was tlaking over dinner abt it, with my dad.. he knows i'm quite sad abt it, but he also told me i'll really have an even harder time nxt year going every wednesday. dont mention next year, this year has been busy enough. and guess what the year isn't over yet. its just that the wednesdays in sch are mostly for so many other activites. and i have training on wed too. and i haven't been going for too many lessons due to these activities. yea i know that if i'm not scared of that much trouble i would still continue, but its very troublesome for both me and my teacher, and when you're paying school fees and not turning up, its quite a waste. but it totally isn't about the money. its about... time. i know i will be dam freaking stoned without my lessons every week, but i've sorted out all the other options.. and maybe it isn't so bad after all. or am i just trying to console myself. well i have a guitar at home that i can try learning. but that isn't the damn point. i've thought about it for quite some time and i think its best to just let go for a while.. there will be times where i can take it up again.. although it will be much much later.. next year the lessons end at like five on 4 days per week.. and i've thought about changing lessons times, but it may work for this year.. but definitely not the next.. plus i've got training every wednesday and i've to go all the way to dhoby and back again. i've done it many times this year but frankly speaking its really tiring and when i reach training most of the time i'm like out of energy.
there are pple whom i know that self-learned drums.. point is i wont get a drum set till after A lvls. a rule that my dad set. haha beats not getting drums at all eh?
its just that.. from a month later and onwards.. my life would be missing those beats, those flams, those bass drum sounds, those high-hat rhythms. i feel so useless in some way that why cant i just make this work out.. but on the other hand i know its better for me to do this. its just so.
agonising. that i wont be touching the drum set weekly. haha i'm quite a drum freak eh. thats me... thats me...
these days have been doing my tutorials.. and i've been trying to set goals for myself.. since lesser time is spent on drums.. more on studying and TRAINING. i wanna jump man.. fly high. just. jump. high. its so good to feel yourself in the air.. freely floating for a moment.. but thats enough to make me up and jumping more.. to just know you are sort of flying high. haha.. hopefully no more injuries until next year's nationals.. first time i feel like getting a medal so much.. yeah..
its always good to set aims in life (: at least u feel that you're going somewhere. a direction. a path. towards an end. and from that end we start a new journey again.
TMR PE LESSON IS PINGPONG. WHOOOOOHOOOO. ok man all set man. woot! exciting. hahahaha... see ya all in school!
round and round we go...
Sunday, July 23, 2006;
♥ 3:07 PM
hello! due to overwhelming response, and my own conscience, I SHALL UPDATE! update update update.. ok lame -.-
anyways school has been okay these past 2 weeks. PE lesson now so fun got frisbee and stuff, PE module starting soon too cant wait ^^. i think most of the guys are going for pingpong! pingpong so fun right, i think the name came from the sound made by ur bat and the ball? ping and pong. LOL. okay random. poor brent i hope he passes his napfa la, we all wanna help him but dunno he want a not lur. maybe after PE lesson force him go do pull up ba.
haiz sometimes i wonder if i like i shud do something or not. u want answers but all that comes are doubts. uncertainty, calamity. at times ure scared of doing something, but at times u think its very fine. being unable to noe where are u standing is quite scary, being unable to achieve something u really want is too agonising. but sometimes u just have to let it go, when its time to let go. but when its not, never ever do.
but sometimes u just dont know when, but i guess the time will come, and when it comes u will know exactly what to do. for now just be stable.
argh. things are getting more and more confusing these days. so much homework. promos. i wonder if this is called stress. coz i dun really know what is it. maybe its the feeling u get when u dont study? or maybe its because of the life ure in.
doing some gp peer review thingy now. so boring la. and this C.A.D thing for Gp has been drilled into our heads for lke 4 weeks already. when will it stop. i wonder if GP was only all about compre and compo techniques and nothing else. maybe they are supposed to teach current affairs? but i think not. that would be in history. weird eh current affairs in history. apparently as mr lee chun duan says its just because its past already can be included in history. but current affairs is nice to study lol.
so sian still have to do some econs outline thing. WALAO. bored. like mad. kk i go do le. cya.
round and round we go...
Monday, July 10, 2006;
♥ 9:35 PM
school is fun these days. and so was world cup! haha.. i think zidane was really pist that time.. thats why he headbutted materazzi.. but come to think of it no matter how pist he was he shudnt have done that. oh well. actually i wanted to slp already then when i realized it was already 2am so i went to watch world cup. din expect it to be so exciting =)
sigh but france lost. italy got skills la.. but france was on the offensive very nicely on the second half.. made use of the chances to atck very well.. oh well.. only a game eh?
and sry to yuzhuo and chun coz i cant go CJ's house to watch haha.. dad didnt allow.. oh well i had company too ^^ haven experienced watching world cup with a whole big bunch of friends yet.. shud try the next world cup.
high jump finals on wednesday hooo!!! jiayou aikkwan and heng and KX. gogogo =D
although this year i not taking part.. but i will nxt year.. haha.. argh cant wait to get back to jumping.. wonder when mr seem would tell me to start jumping.. done weights for quite long already.. but building up strength isnt as bad either ^^
i found this quote today : " i wanna try my hand at this game called life.. i wont know anything until i make my move"
haha sounds nice lur. k needa go mug a bit le.. cya!
round and round we go...
Monday, July 03, 2006;
♥ 9:45 PM
whee CTs over! lol a bit lag but haha who cares
went on class outings on both thursday and friday woot. superman was a nice movie, so was class LAN (: so rare la 12 pple turned up altogether. although 2 had to go we still had full in house dota! before 2 more had to go.. haha nice right. bloody nice. hoho.
during the days of the england and brazil matches i was like feeling dam heavy-headed.. so i just went to slp, who knows once i lie down its 10 hours.. cant blame previous day only slept 4 hours, still got training when i woke on sat so oh well. and who knows when i woke up brazil lost. my sis's music teacher earned 500 bucks out of that lolol. good prediction? but seriously i was supporting france coz i knew brazil wud win, then france win. so actually all the same. ugh. nvm.
now CTs over enjoy a while first, i think after abt 1 or 2 wks i start choinging liao lol. doesnt seem like me eh? no choice la promos really coming. fast. blink of an eye its term 4 week 4 and boom promos in front of ur face. wowee. exciting.
lol yay now got PE module VOTE FOR BASKETBALL. OR HIGH JUMP. or both haha. i wonder high jump can a not lol. maybe we choose extremities like ballet or breakdancing. or even yoga! well thats if the school provides these modules la. lolol. looking forward to a fun term 3 and 4! hurrah for no mroe CTs!
round and round we go...